The rage came out again tonight mixed in with depression. I decided to buy some pretty new underwear today and decided to try them out tonight. I tend to not take close looks at myself in the mirror because it causes me to start finding every flaw and that just brings me down. You would think that something sexy would make me feel better about myself. WRONG! ...All because of cheater's affair!
I put on my new panties and take a look at how my 32 year old butt looks in them. I've been working out and my butt has never looked better. My first reaction was, oh wow look at that. But then...the image of the slut popped into my mind. Specifically the photo I saw of her taking a picture of her butt exactly how I was standing looking at mine. Except since she is 24, she didn't have stretch marks covering each cheek from having two kids.
Now, this just led me to start inspecting other parts of my body. My favorite attack is my stomach. My stomach has never looked so good except...the loose skin that has set up camp. Hey, you don't have a 8lbs 12oz baby boy without having your skin stretch...
These things wouldn't normally bother me so damn much because I am realistic knowing that I had two kids. However, it's a whole different ball game when I know my cheating husband had his eyes and hands all over some tight ass.
So what does a girl do in this situation? She exclaims, "I HATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU DID TO ME! I will never be able to say that my husband really loves me because after having two kids he still only has eyes for me." As my husband starts drowning in the quicksand of my rage, he is throwing whatever he can at me..."You're amazing....you're beautiful...you're hot...I can't keep my eyes and hand off you..." Oh stop please... if you had thought about that before you laid down with her...you would have seen me in my new panties and we would be getting it on right now.I guess all that sex you were having with not only her but with me too is really starting to even out now. Aaawwww.....poor baby.